Observations of life, creativity, drive, and transition from a once-professional athlete and now-aspiring lifelong athletic human who gives a shit.

Journal

Reclaiming my Time: False Starts

I told myself I’d sit down and write whatever came out.   She isn’t even asleep yet. I put her in the crib, stuck a pacifier in her mouth, and killed the lights. I kissed her on the head and

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The World is a Mess and I’m About to Have a Baby

I’m about to have a baby.   And my mind is full of mass shootings and asinine arguments and interpretations supporting inflated 2nd amendment rights, and protests being misinterpreted, and Ta-Nehisi Coates’ realistically bleak view of the future of race

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On Retiring from Professional Racing

Every morning for 10 months, I woke up to the sight of my elite racing kit that I hung on the wall next to my bed as a motivator after Achilles surgery. It was a visual cue that represented a

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Six Weeks of the Couch Life: An Update

  The scar from my heel surgery is looking good, the contours of the heel bone beneath are smooth, the achilles tendon is nice and mobile. 95% of the time I feel zero pain. I’ve spent six weeks as a

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Getting Comfortable

One Week Done I honestly can’t believe it’s been a week already since I had surgery. The next 11 weeks stretch out ahead in a way I can’t even let myself consider. I can’t think about how it will be

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An Unexpected Victory

Yesterday I got surgery on my Achilles area in a foreign country by one of the leading tendon specialists in the world, and today I am a new woman. Not just because he fixed a bunch of broken shit that

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The Next Step

It’s no secret I’ve been dealing with some achilles stuff for quite a while. Over two years to be exact. About six weeks ago I had a breakthrough. A very high resolution MRI read by Dr. Amol Saxena found that

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I miss my dad

I knew he would die the moment he was diagnosed. So when he did, two years later, after liver cancer did its work, it felt…appropriate. The death itself was messy. I watched him gasp for air, in a coma, supposedly

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Frank Fleshman: Obituary

April 9, 1955-May 15, 2015 Frank Fleshman passed away May 15th in the arms of his wife and two children, after a two-year battle with liver cancer. A casual memorial was held at the family home with his friends and

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